Thursday, December 04, 2003
how do u spell boring?
Music of the moment : Come Clean - Hilary Duff
Sorry if I annoyed you guys with my Hilary Duff's music of the moment entries, but I apparently love her music. So....YOUNG. Gosh, I never felt that in years. Muahahahaha! As if I'm so old. Bleh.
Sorry if I annoyed you guys with my Hilary Duff's music of the moment entries, but I apparently love her music. So....YOUNG. Gosh, I never felt that in years. Muahahahaha! As if I'm so old. Bleh.
I finished that book! GYAAA!!!!! The Lovely Bones! FINITO! ENDED! Yesh yesh yesh. Overall, the story is quite interesting. There's this girl, named Susie Salmon who was murdered by this really psychotic neighbour of hers, Mr Harvey. So she is the narrator of in this book, and she speaks from Heaven. And she spoke of how she viewed ppl cope with her death-and how they move on. A deep and very moving novel. And now I begin to appreciate those who are with me right now....
*now listening to Figure.09-Linkin Park* I am now using my mum's lappie. Nice. I like the black body this laptop has. I WANT ONE! My dad built this networking thingy, so now three computers at home, and all are internet-enabled. Ahhhh....bliss.
Zaf came over to my house earlier in the morning. Hehehehe...we had a nice, long chat. Nice Zaf. Luckily he came too, coz I was about to fall asleep reading that Lovely Bones ^__^ Forgive me people, I'm puasa-ing today!
And later on, I logged on into the internet, and surfed around in Friendster. Guess whut I found? JUST GUESS. AF's contestant's profiles. Luckily, I found Sahri's in Zaf's friendster, and Khai's in Sahri's friendster. Huh...nasib baik la they are the ones that I like most (and V-I-N-C-E too!)...so...dengan muke tak malu nyer, I added them. Hurhurhurhur....Oy, I was bored okay???
*now listening to Figure.09-Linkin Park* I am now using my mum's lappie. Nice. I like the black body this laptop has. I WANT ONE! My dad built this networking thingy, so now three computers at home, and all are internet-enabled. Ahhhh....bliss.
Zaf came over to my house earlier in the morning. Hehehehe...we had a nice, long chat. Nice Zaf. Luckily he came too, coz I was about to fall asleep reading that Lovely Bones ^__^ Forgive me people, I'm puasa-ing today!
And later on, I logged on into the internet, and surfed around in Friendster. Guess whut I found? JUST GUESS. AF's contestant's profiles. Luckily, I found Sahri's in Zaf's friendster, and Khai's in Sahri's friendster. Huh...nasib baik la they are the ones that I like most (and V-I-N-C-E too!)...so...dengan muke tak malu nyer, I added them. Hurhurhurhur....Oy, I was bored okay???
There's this girl named Dally that put a link to my blog in her blog. Thanks girl! I'll add u in my friendster soon! Hehehehe....apesal la ari nih eh? I'm acting weird lah...ok..now I'm scaring myself. I better stop that.
My tooth hurts. I dunno which one. It's the back one, I think. Waaahhhhh!! DEMIT! EVIL TOOTH!
My tooth hurts. I dunno which one. It's the back one, I think. Waaahhhhh!! DEMIT! EVIL TOOTH!
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
10.29 pm
Music of the moment : In This Diary - The Ataris
I HATE FLU! EVIL FLU! I wanna go sleep now, but I can't, coz I made a mistake of sleeping too much earlier in the afternoon. Ba-ka. TOTALLY BA-KA. Huh....why did I sleep anyways???
Not much happened. I ate cake and stuff....happy birthday to me. Today is a nice birthday. It didnt rain, and I think I look nice today. Heh. And I ate cake. But EVIL FLU had to go in and barge my perfect day, the cake tasted nothing to me. I HATE FLU!
Oh yeah, just wanna put some raya picture in here.
Uh...I KNOW I looked stupit. Hehe. Forgive me as I also had a FLU that day. GOSH, this flu wont go anywhere. Mebbe I have sinus. Uh???
I HATE FLU! EVIL FLU! I wanna go sleep now, but I can't, coz I made a mistake of sleeping too much earlier in the afternoon. Ba-ka. TOTALLY BA-KA. Huh....why did I sleep anyways???
Not much happened. I ate cake and stuff....happy birthday to me. Today is a nice birthday. It didnt rain, and I think I look nice today. Heh. And I ate cake. But EVIL FLU had to go in and barge my perfect day, the cake tasted nothing to me. I HATE FLU!
Oh yeah, just wanna put some raya picture in here.
Uh...I KNOW I looked stupit. Hehe. Forgive me as I also had a FLU that day. GOSH, this flu wont go anywhere. Mebbe I have sinus. Uh???
i'm 18!
Music of the moment : Boys of Summer - The Ataris
I like this band! *and I can tell you my love for you would still be strong, after the boys of summer had gone...* GO PUNK ROCK! AF IS EVIL!
I like this band! *and I can tell you my love for you would still be strong, after the boys of summer had gone...* GO PUNK ROCK! AF IS EVIL!
I am officially 18 today! Yeah...no need pretending that I am 18 while I'm not (but technically I am 18 this year long....I WAS born on 1985 u know...) Well, at lot of sms'es poured yesterday...but the "friends" I mentioned yesterday still didnt say anything. Oh well, I dun want to cry over it. After all, they just know me, so it's not their fault.But Ariff (baby u dah besau...^__^), and Bron and my cousins and several other wished me, so that was nice. Even my high school friends didn't forget me. Hehehe...thanks guys....And also my sister! Look at the tagboard! Hehehe....
Im having this big flu right now, and that doesnt feel nice at all. I hate feeling something stuck in my throat!! And I planned to fast today but since I needed lotsa water, so no need puase lah~
Hurm...what else to crap? Oh yeah, I still haven't finish reading that novel I bought. It's kinda funny coz I can read Harry Potter that is 800 pages long in just 4 days, but this book I bought is just 360 pages, and it's been 3 days since I opened it. Weird eh? It seems like this book is really captivating, and plus, I kinda fell asleep everytime I'm in the middle of reading it. But the book is NOT boring. THAT I can assure you. It's just that I like sleeping. Hee hee.
I better go, I haven't eaten breakfast. Happy Birthday to ME!
Im having this big flu right now, and that doesnt feel nice at all. I hate feeling something stuck in my throat!! And I planned to fast today but since I needed lotsa water, so no need puase lah~
Hurm...what else to crap? Oh yeah, I still haven't finish reading that novel I bought. It's kinda funny coz I can read Harry Potter that is 800 pages long in just 4 days, but this book I bought is just 360 pages, and it's been 3 days since I opened it. Weird eh? It seems like this book is really captivating, and plus, I kinda fell asleep everytime I'm in the middle of reading it. But the book is NOT boring. THAT I can assure you. It's just that I like sleeping. Hee hee.
I better go, I haven't eaten breakfast. Happy Birthday to ME!
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
inner strength inside me
Music of the moment : Inner Strength - Hilary Duff
So, I was sitting in that red sofa in the living room, reading that book I bought. And then suddenly I fell asleep (as usual) and slept for nearly two hours straight on that windy afternoon. I woke up, watched Thats So Raven and Lizzie. Actually, this has nothing to do with anything. I just feel like typing that I had a nice good sleep today ^_^
Tomorrow's my birthday. My 18th birthday. Gosh, I'm old oredi. Actually, this kinda saddens me coz I'm sure my friends forgotten all about my birthday. After all, they just knew me, and I'm not actually a significant member in their group, so.....Look, it's not like I crave for attention. But it's my birthday, and it cudn't hurt to wish rite? I'm not even sure if they read this. But whut I know, when they do, they will remember it and say "It's too late anywayz, so why bother?"....Whatever. Let's just see whether they remember it or not. Which, I might say, I doubt it.
When I reviewed this back, my birthday and all, I kinda figured how lonely I am in this life. Family is one thing I have in this life, and I found heaven in them. And it's nice to have Ariff with me, but that doesn't really sums up what I am feeling inside. Sure, he's there and really a nice person to talk to, but when it comes to absence, he's in that category too. I miss him. Dearly. And I miss my friends too, even though sometimes I don't feel I'm important to them. And I long to have a really nice friend to talk to, to be there when I need her, a nice girlfriend, like the ones I have back in high school. Being in school now doesnt really help much as there are barely ten girls in our groups combined, lesser than less. And sometimes when people hang out with their room mates or housemates, I think why I can't be like them. Then I remembered that my housemates (and also roommate) dun really talk to me and probably think I'm some kind of a freak. They're all seniors and I really don't fit in their closed-knit group. I hate myself sometimes for being so hard in finding friends that I can trust in, and when I do, they turn their back on me. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. Mebbe I talk differently, or mebbe I'm too self-conscious. But I'm a human, and human do make mistakes. I WANT FRIENDS. AND I WANT TO FEEL THAT I'M WANTED. Somehow, that is one thing that I still failed to achieve to this day. Help me God.
Let's just see who remembers my birthday tomorrow. I doubt there's any wishes. Moreover a present. I hate being alone. And all I wanted was to feel significant, if that is possible.
i'm a sweet!
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personality and always help out a friend in
need. You are fairly outgoing, and always show
a friendly face. You truly care for other
people, and you show it. However, you may
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Monday, December 01, 2003
not this time!
Music of the moment : Lonely - Britney Spears
Yeah yeah, I listen to Britney sometimes. So whut? Is that a crime?
New layout! I got tired of seeing the same old pink layout, coz everybody is doing it. And besides, it's not like I like the colour pink that much, and I kinda needed a change. This is the 3rd version of whitelily. This first one was the pitas page, the second one was the pink layout, so this is the third one. I kinda tweaked the previous layout with colours...heh. Mebbe you think that is not much, but being a lazy person that I am, this is a big accomplishment for me. The header pic is Michelle Branch (btw, thankx Yana!). I fancied that picture a lot coz she looked out in the window, kinda thinking and drifting in thoughts, like I did most of the time when I'm bored. The words in that header is by me, that was just some impromptu thoughts that I jotted down to be put in that header. Heh. Anywayz, put you comments on the tagboard k? I really need ur thoughts on this. This is my birthday pressie to myself, so happy birthday to me!
I watched AI just now in HBO. Halfway watching that, I slaved myself in front of this pc, doing the layout. My my, I must not make it a habit. Watching a movie halfway, that is. I slept in The Matrix Reloaded AND Revolutions, watched a bit of Underworld, and god knows how many movies I slept innit. Darn.
I bought this book, The Lovely Bones written by Alice Sebold. Nice. Seriously. If you haven't read it, I hate you. Haha. I'm kidding, people!
Better go to sleep. I'm tired. My friends all decided to dump me and not be online tonite. What is wrong with them?
Yeah yeah, I listen to Britney sometimes. So whut? Is that a crime?
New layout! I got tired of seeing the same old pink layout, coz everybody is doing it. And besides, it's not like I like the colour pink that much, and I kinda needed a change. This is the 3rd version of whitelily. This first one was the pitas page, the second one was the pink layout, so this is the third one. I kinda tweaked the previous layout with colours...heh. Mebbe you think that is not much, but being a lazy person that I am, this is a big accomplishment for me. The header pic is Michelle Branch (btw, thankx Yana!). I fancied that picture a lot coz she looked out in the window, kinda thinking and drifting in thoughts, like I did most of the time when I'm bored. The words in that header is by me, that was just some impromptu thoughts that I jotted down to be put in that header. Heh. Anywayz, put you comments on the tagboard k? I really need ur thoughts on this. This is my birthday pressie to myself, so happy birthday to me!
I watched AI just now in HBO. Halfway watching that, I slaved myself in front of this pc, doing the layout. My my, I must not make it a habit. Watching a movie halfway, that is. I slept in The Matrix Reloaded AND Revolutions, watched a bit of Underworld, and god knows how many movies I slept innit. Darn.
I bought this book, The Lovely Bones written by Alice Sebold. Nice. Seriously. If you haven't read it, I hate you. Haha. I'm kidding, people!
Better go to sleep. I'm tired. My friends all decided to dump me and not be online tonite. What is wrong with them?
sink into a sleep forever
Music of the moment : Kiseki - Hideaki Takizawa
Help me coz I'm bored. O__O Darn it. I hate it when I'm bored. Bacause that it when I began to piss everyone in this entire family. Pathetic, but that is what happened. So please don't screw me.
My bro is watching the repeated versions of Raya open house thingy in RIA. U know they have this *stupid* Akademi Fantasia shows where some the contestants were like, armed with smiley faces and nothing more? Damn, I so hate them. This doesn't help much as the most of my immediate family members like them. They hear their music (ouch, my ears) in the car, watch their shows on tv (and lemme tell you there are a lot of those A LOT.), and read about them in magazines. At first I dun really give a damn about them much, as my playlist in my winamp took much of my concern (haha, like a bunch of this singes going to change my perspective of real music. Puh-leeze.) Some of them are real talented too, I must aadmit. Contestants like Vince and Khai (and two of the girls, I really don't know their names, much less I care) shud be given credit, coz they really had it in them. But the rest of them? Ugh, please don't torture me like this. They've been getting so much limelight lately that it's BUGGING me. And I dun usually get bugged by things like this. I find it truly annoying and disturbing. Sorry, I'm not a supporter, so if anyone wanna flame me by saying AF is everything-yada-yada-yada, I'm not gonna listen, coz this is after all, my blog, and I give a shit when I feel like it. And if anyone does not like it, fine. But dun flame me. THIS IS JUST MY OPINION. But I do think AF is just so so so lame.
Oh gosh, I just remembered the cold fact. I'm fasting. Now I cant eat. Darn. I was just eyeing the cookies.....
*go MICHELLE BRANCH* AF IS EVIL!!! AFUNDI IS LAME! *oops, did I type that??*
Help me coz I'm bored. O__O Darn it. I hate it when I'm bored. Bacause that it when I began to piss everyone in this entire family. Pathetic, but that is what happened. So please don't screw me.
My bro is watching the repeated versions of Raya open house thingy in RIA. U know they have this *stupid* Akademi Fantasia shows where some the contestants were like, armed with smiley faces and nothing more? Damn, I so hate them. This doesn't help much as the most of my immediate family members like them. They hear their music (ouch, my ears) in the car, watch their shows on tv (and lemme tell you there are a lot of those A LOT.), and read about them in magazines. At first I dun really give a damn about them much, as my playlist in my winamp took much of my concern (haha, like a bunch of this singes going to change my perspective of real music. Puh-leeze.) Some of them are real talented too, I must aadmit. Contestants like Vince and Khai (and two of the girls, I really don't know their names, much less I care) shud be given credit, coz they really had it in them. But the rest of them? Ugh, please don't torture me like this. They've been getting so much limelight lately that it's BUGGING me. And I dun usually get bugged by things like this. I find it truly annoying and disturbing. Sorry, I'm not a supporter, so if anyone wanna flame me by saying AF is everything-yada-yada-yada, I'm not gonna listen, coz this is after all, my blog, and I give a shit when I feel like it. And if anyone does not like it, fine. But dun flame me. THIS IS JUST MY OPINION. But I do think AF is just so so so lame.
Oh gosh, I just remembered the cold fact. I'm fasting. Now I cant eat. Darn. I was just eyeing the cookies.....
*go MICHELLE BRANCH* AF IS EVIL!!! AFUNDI IS LAME! *oops, did I type that??*
guess whut. Im bored.
Music of the moment : Love Just Is - Hilary Duff (for the tenth time tonite)
Ariff's exam is tmrw. And my guess is he's stressing like hell. I feel like I want to call him, but I cant, coz my prepaid is onli RM2. I'm so busted.
Somebody just wished me Happy Birthday. TWO DAYS EARLIER. Andrew, turn off that ICQ alert! Whatever. He's the first person to wish me, even if it's two days earlieer. Whatever.
Gosh, Ive been saying alot of "Whatever" these days. Bosan sgt kot. Oh well, Im sleepy.
Ariff's exam is tmrw. And my guess is he's stressing like hell. I feel like I want to call him, but I cant, coz my prepaid is onli RM2. I'm so busted.
Somebody just wished me Happy Birthday. TWO DAYS EARLIER. Andrew, turn off that ICQ alert! Whatever. He's the first person to wish me, even if it's two days earlieer. Whatever.
Gosh, Ive been saying alot of "Whatever" these days. Bosan sgt kot. Oh well, Im sleepy.
Saturday, November 29, 2003
back!
Music of the moment : Like This - Reshmonu
I'm back people!! GYAAAAA!!!! Nice olde Kedah. I like it here. Raya sucks, by the way. Here's why :
1) The 1st Raya was sad coz we were tearing the house off, coz my mum's siblings were taking things like aircond, curtains and stuff out from the house. Hyuk hyuk...bye TENTERAM. RIP.
2) The 2nd Raya was okay, spent half of the day traveling to Terenggau. Not much I guess.
3) 3rd raya was weird. My cousins from Subang went back home, and that kinda left us alone and BORED. Major boredom BIG time. There was also this *guest* (I dunno them really, but I think we're related) staying at my gramma's, and they were like, this big pests, and I hate them, I cant really say much about them. I dun have a very nice impression of them, so hence, I hate them. Simple.
4) I miss home. Seriously. I didnt enjoy raya at all, and I wanted to go back home Kedah so so bad! I'm bad, I know. Shut up people.
I dunno why, I cant keep my tears from NOT flowing everytime I went to Pah's grave. I went there again in the first raya, and I wept again. Huhu...I Still cant believe that she's not here anymore, and her house is going to be sold. THIS, all THIS, is just too much for me to bear. Inside I feel like I want all of this to stop, but I know somehow, somewhere in our lives, we just have to move on. There's nothing I can do, yet I'm here, saying things like this every single day. Oh well, I shall stop. One day....
I'm back people!! GYAAAAA!!!! Nice olde Kedah. I like it here. Raya sucks, by the way. Here's why :
1) The 1st Raya was sad coz we were tearing the house off, coz my mum's siblings were taking things like aircond, curtains and stuff out from the house. Hyuk hyuk...bye TENTERAM. RIP.
2) The 2nd Raya was okay, spent half of the day traveling to Terenggau. Not much I guess.
3) 3rd raya was weird. My cousins from Subang went back home, and that kinda left us alone and BORED. Major boredom BIG time. There was also this *guest* (I dunno them really, but I think we're related) staying at my gramma's, and they were like, this big pests, and I hate them, I cant really say much about them. I dun have a very nice impression of them, so hence, I hate them. Simple.
4) I miss home. Seriously. I didnt enjoy raya at all, and I wanted to go back home Kedah so so bad! I'm bad, I know. Shut up people.
I dunno why, I cant keep my tears from NOT flowing everytime I went to Pah's grave. I went there again in the first raya, and I wept again. Huhu...I Still cant believe that she's not here anymore, and her house is going to be sold. THIS, all THIS, is just too much for me to bear. Inside I feel like I want all of this to stop, but I know somehow, somewhere in our lives, we just have to move on. There's nothing I can do, yet I'm here, saying things like this every single day. Oh well, I shall stop. One day....
My my, almost forgot, raya pictures. I'll be uploadig them soon...(gegege...Hatyai nye pon blom upload...tingginye cecita....)...there's a LOT of this pictures, so ebar with me if you are slow...hek! Who cares???
I will also change the layout and the header pic...if I'm not lazy. So a new version of whitelily will emerge and I shall not die of boredom. I come in peace. Heh.
Nitey nite. I'm frikkin tired.
I will also change the layout and the header pic...if I'm not lazy. So a new version of whitelily will emerge and I shall not die of boredom. I come in peace. Heh.
Nitey nite. I'm frikkin tired.
Sunday, November 23, 2003
this pain is just too real
Music of the moment : My Immortal - Evanescence (music video)
This song is just so beautiful. I love the melodies, the voice, the words, the emotion innit...everything that's innit...it clicked very well...yet this song is very simple. LOVE IT!
I have nothing to write about actually. We have more food coz the third hamper just arrived just now, so now we're figuring out where to put the excessive food. Mebbe in our stomach. Rite, I'm gonna eat until I burst!
Hurm...it's raya rite? One thing that I really looked forward to is Raya. But why do I feel so out of place? Like I'm not enjoying any minute of raya preparation, or the raya gifts? Hurm...something to ponder about....Mebbe because I have nothing to look forward to in Raya. I maybe want beraya with all my cousins and stuff, but when Raya arrives itself, I'll be totally clueless coz Gramma is no longer there, Ariff is not here this year, and I'm gonna have to spend longer time in Terengganu. No offence, I like Terengganu and all, but minimum four days???? Wow...that's enough to kill me! No Maxis signal, how the hell will I survive??? AND I'M EASILY HOMESICK!!!
Rilek rilek....once in a year rite? This raya had better be good, coz I have this lump in my throat, and I'm NOT enjoying every single minute of it. Peace and out guys, I'll be offline until Saturday/Sunday (depends on my dad), so this blog will be empty a bit. If u guys are bored, leave me a msg on the tagboard k?
Ja minna. Happy Hari Raya ^__^
Rilek rilek....once in a year rite? This raya had better be good, coz I have this lump in my throat, and I'm NOT enjoying every single minute of it. Peace and out guys, I'll be offline until Saturday/Sunday (depends on my dad), so this blog will be empty a bit. If u guys are bored, leave me a msg on the tagboard k?
Ja minna. Happy Hari Raya ^__^